Realization

I Realized something last week. Something that perhaps has been staring me in the face for as long as I can remember.

Its been an interesting few weeks. A couple of weeks ago I started to sense that my body was disposeable. I also started to wonder what needed to exist for everything else to exist.

I slept with a woman in whom the Holy Spirit is alive and well a week ago. That night, the kundalini process quickened. I had intuitions which are indescribable within my dream states. I slept 14 hours the following night. It started to dawn on me, that God has been there for eternity, and its God who illuminates my experience. Awareness, as Gods presence, is primary, and experience secondary, yet God is the experience. Its as though everyything is turned inside out, and experience arises within awareness, and experience is both cognizance of inner world things like thoughts and feelins and percieved outer things like sights and sounds. Inner and outer dont seem to matter anymore.

Awareness has this body, and not the other way around. This realization, where I finally seemed to have realized what is going on, is very simple, very obvious, nothing to write home about, yet also profound. I feel a little like an idiot; how could I have not realized this before. Its the same awareness that illuminates and powers everyones experience, and this body is siimply a perspective on a dream of Spirit. Yet, all is Spirit, dreaming itself. Spirit is me. I am Spirit. Spirit is everything.

I dont know quite what the implications are. Maybe I will go surfing and sit under banana trees for a while. What I do know is that everyone is running around trapped in a type of optical illusion, thinking   they are seperate from their percieved world.

There is nothing to get, really. Nowhere to go and nowhere to land. My body is adjusting to this and there has been a lot of inner tension as a result.

Love
Bruce