Make love to your dreams...

In a blog recently I wrote about following the heart's desire as compared to trying to fulfill egoic desire. To follow the heart, I have had to learn to feel your heart region, and to be sensitive to the changes that arise in that area of the body. If my heart is blocked or I am not used to feeling that, then it can be difficult to feel that desire. For a long time, I  was unable to distinguish the two, and only recently can I feel with more certainty where my longing lies. Another way to say this is that I am becoming more authentic, seeing my true self, and no longer being lost in my false and delusional self.

Back to making love to your dreams. I took life slow on the last weekend, and read and slept and went on a date. Some reading I was doing stimulated some thinking about sexuality and masculinity and femininity. I am increasingly interested in the dance of masculine and feminine energies, and how the co-create together, not just sexually, but in bringing forth other creative changes in life. From a mans (that's me J ) perspective, I have a strong desire for beautiful and extraordinary women. I am attracted to many women, and I find them haunting and alluring. The most obvious creative urge is sexual and is designed to produce more people. Yet, thinking about what is happening, there is a masculine impulse which penetrates a receptive female, and something that is comprised of both parents yet is creatively unique emerges (i.e a baby). The beautiful woman becomes the goal, the dream, and sexual desire drives the search for that goal. When erotic love emerges, either party will do almost anything and exert enormous energy to be with their partner. The two people hunger for each other, and from that hunger for union, new life emerges.

Okay, nothing new here yet. So, I started to think about porn and masturbation to porn. In porn, there is a sexual desire which finds its self-gratifying release in a loveless state (unless you are capable of generating states of bliss independently). The release has no creative result, so creative energy is dissipated, yet there is nothing to show. The goal of porn is just pleasurable release then, and surely that is not honoring the creative energy. I am not suggesting porn or masturbation is right or wrong, each person needs to investigate it for themselves. So, watching porn will take a person round in endless circles, without ever getting anywhere. If union with a partner is the real goal of sexuality, then by becoming addicted to porn, someone essentially gives up their creative goal seeking ability as the forfeit the goal of a partner. Porn and excessive masturbation then is an argument for disempowerment, as one is not able to hold the tension until the goal is reached.

(Ok, I am slowly getting there....). Then, I got thinking about Napolean Hill's book "Think and get rich". I read it a long time ago, and the line that struck me was that everyone who got really wealthy was able to channel their sexual desire towards reaching their goals. It took a long time to figure out what that meant, and when I read it, I was hopelessly incapable of resisting any sexual impulse. It came to me that the vision of my goal is the equivalent of a beautiful woman I may desire. What if I fell in love with my goal? What if my goal becomes my deepest desired dream? What if I write poetry about my goal and pursued it with tenacity and heart as if it were a woman with whom I was infatuated with? I would need to have a clear vision of how I would like the goal to look and feel and touch, in other words, I have to give the goal clear form in my mind and within my imagined senses. The goal would need to be a projection born from my heart and my soul, and then I would bring all my love and desire and sexuality and Eros towards union with that goal. Union would be the manifestation of the goal, the bringing forth of the result, the tangible touching and tasting of the goal that I desire. If that happened, then the goal and I would be intertwined, and we would be as one, as two forms that have merged in the world of form, separate yet together. And then, once the form had been realized, it will bring forth new results that cannot be predicted, in essence, "children" will be formed. Reaching  the goal will give birth to a new "me" as I change and grow through achieving the result, and that "new me" will then give shape and form to new creations from that new place of being. In that sense, cumulative goal achievement is a constant process of desire, union and birth, again and again.

The key point is, I have to recognize that my sexuality is a fundamental and powerful need to create. Then, once I am I touch with my hearts (and souls) authentic desire, I imagine the vision of what I wish to create, always staying connected to the hearts motivation. Then, everytime I feel a sexual impulse, I imagine my vision of what I wish to achieve, and direct my motivation towards that goal, feeling the heart connection at the same time (or breathing the sexual energy up into the heart chakra). In this way, I stay in love, in fascination, in literally heart felt desire, for my goal, and so I pursue it with the vigour of lovers separate and wishing to come together. That's what I call making love to the goal...